everything is drving me crazy.
first of all im really annoyed at exams because my dad expects me to be as good as my sister which is stupid because my sister is so much smarter then me and actually likes to study because she has no social life. if i dont do well in these exams im prolly going to get grounded and that means i wont be able to see rohan when i already only get to see him once a week. dad hates it whenever i go anywhere because "i get to see all my friends at school" even though i cant see rohan at school and whenever in pick to see rohan on the weekend instead of my friends my sister will get up me cause im not supposed to pick him over my friends even though i get to see them all week.
secondly im getting really annoyed at people calling each others parents "mum" or "dad". its so stupid. why can some people get to claim to have more than one set of parents just cause they like them better than their own. they should be happy with having one set of parents. and no people dont actually hate their parents, they really would muiss them if they were gone. they just want someone to complain about(i dont mean everyone, there are some exceptions).
thirdly im just really lonely and sick of not having a best friend. ive had two best friends and they both decided to hate me just because i stopped doing everything they wanted and got a personality of my own. nearly everyone else has at least one person they can tell everything too, and i can do that to rohan but i hardly ever get see him.
and fourthly the other day i realised im not actually comfortable around anyone. its kinda a really depressing thought. i dont actually relax around people cause im too scared about what they will think about me.and im absolutly terrified of new people so i hardly ever make new friends.adn now steffie and i are wondering wether its normal?
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ReplyDelete*Good luck with your exams and i hope you dont get grounded
*You are smart, maybe not as smart as your sister (i dont know) but it shouldnt matter even though i know it does
*You're alloud to hang out with rohan without feeling pressured to hang out with friends. your sister can't choose for you and the people who are your real friends would rather you to have time to yourselves and be happy than have one of you with us and be upset.
*You see us everyday and i thank you for that
*yeah i agree with the mum and dad thing. Unless they are your parents i dont understand that. I thought that today too. And i agree, you do miss them, but in my case, if i say i hate them i dont really its just i overuse words like hate etc so usually they have very little meaning at all.
*A best friend isnt defined by the phrase. Many people do not have best firends, they just have friends who they can talk to, and really you're not going to talk to one person whose a friend about everything, you may have different people who are good at different things. If you ever find one friend like that then congrats.
*And also yes it is normal. Most everyones like that but wont admit it. I admit it, i'm like that, but once you're in a situation like that it shouldnt bother you any way.
*Hello steffie
*This is Amy
*I think this will be my last dot point
*I was wrong
Amy
It is normal, it's just that some people (like me) aren't as good at handling situations like that. I get so nervous I can't even describe it and all that runs through my head is, "What am I going to say next... How am I going to react if this happens.. I hope someone comes over and fill in the awkward silences..." and I end up over-thinking everything.
ReplyDeleteI can perform and not get nervous at all, but when it comes to socialising one on one, I freak out. I hate speaking to parents and teachers, hence the reason why I never answer questions in class.
I think it's normal, it's just that some people are more confident in those kinds of situations compared to others.
Steffie and Me should join forces - I'm fine talking to people but i get sooo nervous when i perform!!!
ReplyDeleteTo Bridget:
- the mum thing is weird... and kinda creepy
- Exams suck. And its perfctly fine to preferr friends to grades.
it's pretty darn normal to not be good at socialising or talking to people, if i was on the bus on friday i would've told you that:P beleive it or not i still get incredibly nervous talking to people on the phone. took me a while to go from weird kid no one liked to weird kid people wanted to talk to. most of the time with people i don't know very well i hardly ever like to start a conversation based on the fact that i think they probably don't wnt to talk to me. in my head if they want to talkto me then they;ll talk to me and if i start i'm just imposing myself on them. everyone's different so naturally people are going to be different in social sitautions. but if you want it to be different then remember everyone has the capacity to change if they want to. those shitty inspirational sayings are put there for a reason, so you'll at least beleive a little bit of it then realise you can do and have almost anything you want. if you don't have your head in the clouds then how can you see the stars?(don't steal that i might put it in the book)
ReplyDeletehmm might be a stupid idea...
ReplyDeletebut what if we all concider each other our "best friend"?