well i havent written a blog in a while, but right now, i dont know wat else to do. im miserable and i have been for quite some time, ive been trying(and failing) to act as if everythings ok. im just sick of feeling bad all the time and it makes me take it out on the people i really love:( im really sorry i do it, but i dont know wat to do to fix it. you said "why cant you just be happy?" and i dont know why i cant. i used to be really happy with you, and i still love you, and i still want to stay with you, but i feel like everythings different now. and im so sorry if i get mad at you all the time, but i just get so frustrated to see you not telling me stuff and forgetting about me. i know i overreact but that doesnt mean its all my fault. i really do love you, and i want to fix things. i need you to help me.