I FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY GOT MY Ls!!!!!
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Saturday, November 7
Thursday, November 5
thursday, because thats what the english man said
i havn't posted anything in ages.
i'm a little sad. i'm not quite why, i just am.
it feels strange. the world seems a little lack lustre today. like when you buy silver jewelry and realise that underneath it's just copper. it reminds me of being a little depressed girl who wanted to live inside a sno globe. or the fact that one my earliest and most vivid memories from my childhood is being 6 and thinking, there's not much to live for, how do i end this? and the only way 6 year old aprill could think to kill herself was driving a car off a cliff. but then i thought i can't drive and there's no cliffs around here. i guess i'll just have to put up with it.
i find that slightly funny, most people find it morbid and disturbing for a kid to think.
i feel kinda stuck. like i'm hanging around for a bus that never comes. things are ok but they're not great. i guess i just don't feel happy right now.
lately people think i've been taking drugs, it's either i'm on speed or i'm comming down from taking speed. people i'm not taking drugs i'm just not sleeping right.
i havn't been sleeping good for a while now. i'm a bit frustrated with living at home. it's not like my parents are beating me or anything i just think that if i didn't have to i wouldn't live with them. they're so different and i kind of don't fit in within my own family. it feels bad to not like them but there's not much i can do.
this isn't quite the start to summer i was planning you know?
i'm a little sad. i'm not quite why, i just am.
it feels strange. the world seems a little lack lustre today. like when you buy silver jewelry and realise that underneath it's just copper. it reminds me of being a little depressed girl who wanted to live inside a sno globe. or the fact that one my earliest and most vivid memories from my childhood is being 6 and thinking, there's not much to live for, how do i end this? and the only way 6 year old aprill could think to kill herself was driving a car off a cliff. but then i thought i can't drive and there's no cliffs around here. i guess i'll just have to put up with it.
i find that slightly funny, most people find it morbid and disturbing for a kid to think.
i feel kinda stuck. like i'm hanging around for a bus that never comes. things are ok but they're not great. i guess i just don't feel happy right now.
lately people think i've been taking drugs, it's either i'm on speed or i'm comming down from taking speed. people i'm not taking drugs i'm just not sleeping right.
i havn't been sleeping good for a while now. i'm a bit frustrated with living at home. it's not like my parents are beating me or anything i just think that if i didn't have to i wouldn't live with them. they're so different and i kind of don't fit in within my own family. it feels bad to not like them but there's not much i can do.
this isn't quite the start to summer i was planning you know?
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