well i havent written a blog in a while, but right now, i dont know wat else to do. im miserable and i have been for quite some time, ive been trying(and failing) to act as if everythings ok. im just sick of feeling bad all the time and it makes me take it out on the people i really love:( im really sorry i do it, but i dont know wat to do to fix it. you said "why cant you just be happy?" and i dont know why i cant. i used to be really happy with you, and i still love you, and i still want to stay with you, but i feel like everythings different now. and im so sorry if i get mad at you all the time, but i just get so frustrated to see you not telling me stuff and forgetting about me. i know i overreact but that doesnt mean its all my fault. i really do love you, and i want to fix things. i need you to help me.

selfishness and the detrimental effect ON MY SANITY!!!!!

Selfishnes has got to be the most annoying trait any huiman being can have! becasue you cant argue against them!!!!! cause they dont care, or they cant comprehend the fact that its not all about them!!! and the most frustrating thing, is when they agree on their faults, BUT DONT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT!!!!!if you knew that your being selfish or frustrating someone, you woulod think that you would do something bout it, but they dont because they are to damn selfish!!!!!

i havent blogged in ages but i thought id share this

HSC ALL MY OWN WORK

AHHHHH!!!!
Today is our Year 11 Community Day. I have just finished finished the "All My Own Work" modules and am extremely BORED. So BORED, I am now on the blog POSTING. From memory, the last post I have posted was December last year. ARGH. May God help us all.

Sorry it's late.... Internet Issues.....

♥♥♥

By the way

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY AMY!!!

25.01.2010

hmmmm. i dont think they should change the flag. I like it. It's symbolic and iconic and visually pleasing as far as a formal symbol goes. It's also historic. I like it. I fell like sleeping

REALLY Big Day Out!

As Steffie said, BDO was absolutely fantastic!

I will write up something more detailed when my neck stops hurting so I can type more. =P

Off to find something to wear to Elev8 tomorrow =D

xoxo
♥Aly

Holidays...

my holidays have so far been some of my best which is really silly cause really shit things have happened.

just before christmas my cousin steve died of throat cancer which was absolutly awful. he has a son who is the same age i was when my mum died( he looks scarily lke jefferson). but christmas was a good time, spent christmas with my brothers extended family, boxing day with rohans family, the next day with my mums side of the family and the next two days at rohans place. was the best week ever:)

then just after new years my sister came down form darwin for my dads sixtyeth which was a pretty fun night. she got me addicted to skipbo:P

my grandad has been in hospital for over two weeks now after he had a car accident, he wasnt hurt but he hit his head and he.s now more than slightly senile. today we caught him trying to escape maitland hospital for the third time.

last thursday i went to john butler trio concert with lachlan aprl and rohan it it was one of the best nights ever!!!

yesterday i spent the day in newcastle with lachlan loui and abbie, it was one of those days where nothing went wrong(except the creepy drunk Clack guy talking to loui and me on the train home. he delighted us with rgal tales of how he had just got out of jail, and showed us a newspaper saying he had stabbed four people)

Toothy.

OMG! AMY! YOU HAVE TO SEE MY NEW SHOES!!! THEY'RE HOUNDSTOOTH!!! (I'll try and post a pic soon)

2010!

So as we welcome another year (and another decade) I ask you:

- Are you sad to see 2009 ends?
- What was your favorite thing about 2009?
- Any special memories?
- Biggest regret?
- Plans for 2010?
- Goal or Resolution for this year?

 ♥Aly

Unusual Behaviours

So this is what i've been noticing these past couple of days, weeks, months, however long these tedious holidays have been going on for.

1. My room is clean, and has been clean since i moved into it in November. I've never seen it messy. It's like a part of it is missing.

2. I've stayed up all night about 7 times in the duration of these holidays. Not counting sleepovers and what not. But this is coming from the person who usually crashes at 11 (latest)

3. I've cleaned the ENTIRE house 4 times. I never clean. EVER. If there was a longer period of time than EVER that would be how long i dont clean.

4. I've learnt the start of about 7 songs on piano. Usually if i'm learning a song I'm determined to learn it til the end.

5. I finished making my pencil case. Thats not weird or unusual, just thought i'd let you know.

THIS ISNT FAIR!!!!! THIS IS WHAT BORDOM REDUCES YOU TO!!! Cleaning, inconsitent, tiredly nocternal people. All i want to do is Write an English Essay, Learn Calculus, Have a Piano lesson or sit in one of either Mr Goodwin's, Mrs Mahony's or Mr Connell's lessons.