the end of everything

i cant wait to go to st marys!!!!!!!XD io just really wanna get out of st josephs, like theres heaps of stuff im gunna miss like our table, some teachers and the people but im over going to the same place every day for the last four years!!!!im glad lessons have pretty much finished for this year but i kinda wish we could still just come to school and do this pointless stuff like collapsed classes and hanging around. the orientation should be good but im kinda scared to meet new poeple. im happy to meet people no one knows but i scared scared of meeting people my friends are friends with. 7 DAYS TO WICKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

APPLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Last School Certificateis on Friday... AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today when we had our music party I received a 1.5 kg bag of SUPER-SWEET, CRISP AND JUICY FUJI APPLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And THEY SMELL FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) FORMAL is coming soon, and I'm kinda excited. :) WOW. Year 10 is almost over.. and I have over 10 apples to eat. :)
♥ Shell

wow

So the years almost through. Well as far as school is concerned. So here we go.
* Exams = almost finished for 2009
* Formal = approaching fast
* Right of passage = cant wait (dont care if its in the COLA)
* Orientation days = excited!!!!
* Interviews = hassle
* After party = bound to be awesome (have you seen those invites? :p)
* Leaving = sad
* Crying = what Steffie wants
* Time = what we've lost track of
* Walka water works = screw you we're going to wicked :p
* Mrs Mahony, Mrs Botham, Mrs McCool = Can't we take you with us?
* Slice = the best tasting guilt ever
* dot points = too many and out of order

wow

Oh My GOD!

I FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY GOT MY Ls!!!!!

=D

thursday, because thats what the english man said

i havn't posted anything in ages.
i'm a little sad. i'm not quite why, i just am.
it feels strange. the world seems a little lack lustre today. like when you buy silver jewelry and realise that underneath it's just copper. it reminds me of being a little depressed girl who wanted to live inside a sno globe. or the fact that one my earliest and most vivid memories from my childhood is being 6 and thinking, there's not much to live for, how do i end this? and the only way 6 year old aprill could think to kill herself was driving a car off a cliff. but then i thought i can't drive and there's no cliffs around here. i guess i'll just have to put up with it.
i find that slightly funny, most people find it morbid and disturbing for a kid to think.

i feel kinda stuck. like i'm hanging around for a bus that never comes. things are ok but they're not great. i guess i just don't feel happy right now.

lately people think i've been taking drugs, it's either i'm on speed or i'm comming down from taking speed. people i'm not taking drugs i'm just not sleeping right.
i havn't been sleeping good for a while now. i'm a bit frustrated with living at home. it's not like my parents are beating me or anything i just think that if i didn't have to i wouldn't live with them. they're so different and i kind of don't fit in within my own family. it feels bad to not like them but there's not much i can do.

this isn't quite the start to summer i was planning you know?